A letter to someone I once knew

Sometimes we begin talking again and
that time on Light House Hill
comes through my memory once again
Do you Remember? in my car
I couldn't breathe for hours and
Every time I opened my mouth
no sound ever came out and
I begged You to take me
to the hospital. Do you Remember?
all because you told me you
didn't love me and You never
did take me because you were
embarrassed of my lungs failing me

Sometimes we begin talking again and
that time in Kings of Prussia
begins to replay in my mind
Do you Remember? in the attic
I cried while you screamed and
your fists danced around me like
they were reaching for an answer
I begged for a God to
take me away. Do you Remember?
I still feel my cheeks stinging
the pressure of your body as
your fists skipped around my face
and God never did take me
because He was embarrassed of my
body contorting and my eyes ballooning

blau sein

i see you
in the blueness
of his eyes

i would be lying if i told you this wasn't passionate
your unshaven mouth is still engraved on my lips
the truth my body is still curved from yours against mine
laying down, stoned, feeling higher than i've ever been

i see you
in the length
of his hair

you would be lying if you told me this wasn't passionate
the smell of your contorted voice before i left
the truth your breath is still breathing into my crooked skin
sitting down, thinking, feeling anxious as i've ever been

i see you
in the curve
of his mouth

they would be lying if they told us this wasn't passionate
my cheeks are still swollen from when i left
the truth i'm as tangible as the hole in your ceiling
on bus, leaving, feeling lower than i've ever been